Saturday, June 21, 2008
Still laying low...
Ok, I seem to be doing much better and I am actually starting to feel like my normal self again. The cramping is pretty much gone and the spotting is ever so close to being gone...I am praying it will be completely gone in another day or two. It is so hard to see the spotting when you are pregnant, I have been so lucky this pregnancy because I bled from week 5-11 with the triplets and I never had that this pregnancy. I am still so darn scared every minute, I lay there thinking is everything OK, do I feel OK, are there contractions already, etc. etc. I wish I could relax but as Dr. K said on Tuesday, everything is going to scare me right now. I just want to fast forward to the third trimester. I am trying to be confident in this pregnancy but all I can think of right now is how fast my last pregnancy changed from 14 to 22 weeks, it went downhill so fast. I am really anxious for my follow up appointments next week, I go to Dr. Grogan (the OB) Monday morning and Dr. Korotkin (the peri) on Thursday morning, maybe after those appointments I will feel more confident and secure in my pregnancy and cerclage, like anyhting it takes time to get confident after such a procedure. I look so forward to each week passing and hate that I am wishing away this time in life, especially this time with Katelyn. Which speaking of Katelyn, she has been amazing and so good for everyone and for me. I am not lifting her at all and feel so bad but I try and lay with her and play on the floor as much as possible. She doesn't seem to think much of it all yet. Anyways, that's all for me - one day at a time right now. I will have more updates when I see the doctors next week. I am just trying to adjust to not doing much of anything around here - letting the laundry pile up, letting Jeff clean the house, not worrying about making nice dinners, etc. etc. Dr. G even said "no shopping unless it is online"...oh well. I know it is all worth it to have a living, full term baby at the end of this process. And to think it is almost July, the summer should fly by and I will be 24 weeks the first of September! If all goes well, I have two trips planned in July, the lake for the week of the 4th with Jeff's family (which is very relaxing) and the beach with my family around mid-July, that trip is really up in the air but we shall see. Anyways, I hope everyone is having a great week-end!