Saturday, September 13, 2008

Better late than never on my update...

Well I am up and running again and on my brand new laptop, thanks to my wonderful husband! Jeff surprised me on my birthday and I was SO excited to spend Friday afternoon getting it all organized and my stinking Internet went down till this morning! I am really excited to have my new computer and I can't wait to figure out all the fun things it can do, I am not really good at all this computer stuff but I will get there. It has been somewhat of a strange week around here. I don't know what has been wrong with me but it has been a really emotional week for me. I thought maybe it was the meds that I started last Friday but the doctor said it wasn't a side effect so I have nothing to blame but the pregnancy hormones! I felt really sad and overwhelmed with everything this week and I found myself crying a lot...don't worry I am OK now and it really was just a little funk I went through for a few days. I think the fact that I am getting bigger and more uncomfortable makes it impossible to ignore or pretend that I am not pregnant and now it is such a reality to me. For awhile I would just push it aside so I wouldn't have to feel too afraid of what may happen. Now I believe everything is going to be Ok but I have a lot of anxiety about what the third trimester will bring. Thursday I really thought I was going to have to find out the sex of this baby, I thought maybe I was in a funk because I have stayed too guarded through this. I told Jeff that we have spent so much time, energy and life trying to get pregnant and I almost felt like we weren't enjoying it like we should. So I thought maybe we should find out what the baby was and just start totally getting ready. However, Friday morning came and I decided we really needed to wait another week and make sure my funk didn't pass and I am SO glad we waited because I would have regretted finding out. Tammie and Kristie decided to go to the doctor with me on Friday to see the baby and I am SO happy they went...the tech took us to the 4D ultra sound and it was absolutely AMAZING!!!!! I just started crying when the screen turned and I saw this beautiful baby. It is unbelievable how much the baby looks like Jeff and Kate when she was first born. I fell completely in LOVE, it was like seeing the baby for the first time ever, it overwhelmed me! Now I feel like I am connected in a way that I wouldn't let myself be till this point and that is exactly what I needed. I do think my emotions being so out of whack this past week are all a result of my overwhelming excitement, joy, fear and every other emotion. I keep thinking how insane it will be when this baby finally arrives, how incredible that moment will be for Jeff and me...the moment we have PRAYED SO hard for is really going to be a reality and it overwhelms me. I simply cannot wait to meet my second little miracle baby!
I had a great appointment with Dr. Korotkin after the ultra sound. My cervix went down a little more but is still at 3.5 which is great! I do not want my cervix to go down much more or I will be getting a little nervous but Dr. K said it looked great on Friday and that is all I choose to focus on right now. I did test positive for Group Strep B, we did an early test this time since I had that awful infection show up after I delivered the girls so I started a round of antibiotics yesterday and I will have an IV of antibiotics before I deliver. The procardia that I am on for the contractions is really helping my contractions, they seem to be really inconsistent and I just pray that continue to stay that way. The best news of all is that the baby continues to measure 8 days ahead of where I am (this has been for over three months now) so really I am showing to be 27 weeks and the baby is 2lbs 2oz and all I have just been waiting for them to tell me the baby was over 2lbs, it just seemed like a safer weight if the baby comes early. I just want the baby to be as big as possible! All in all the appointment went awesome, how amazing and wonderful is it that here I am at 26/27 weeks and still doing so well - God is amazing! I also know my angel babies are up there watching over us!

Best of all, here is a sneak peak at baby Gordon! We got so many pictures but these were the best two, they didn't scan very well but I think you can see it OK, this is the baby's face with it's hands under it's chin.





OK I just wrote a novel, that is my update for the week. I am looking so forward to my dad coming to stay with me this week, he arrives on Monday and will be here till Friday, it will be so much fun for me and Katelyn!

8 comments:

Chris said...

Happy Belated Birthday! Those pics are INCREDIBLE! Good for you that you're feeling better. I can't imagine the stress that you can be under at any given moment in this pregnancy. You're doing great! I can't wait to see that real birth picture very soon!!!

Kim said...

Baby Gordon looks precious. I'm glad you're feeling better and that you didn't find out the baby's gender...I know how much you would've regretted that! :) You're in the home stretch now. Tell Gary I said hi!

Jennifer said...

Oh YEAH!!!! I am so glad your appointment went great! I am sorry you were in a funk this past week but glad you are back to happy self. I think we all go through a funk when we are pregnant, and you have even more of a reason for your worrying and fears. But everything is going to be ok, and you have done so AWESOME thus far and I continue to pray for you tht it will stay this way throughout your pregnancy.

Baby Gordon is just precious! Can't wait to see pictures of him/her when he/she arrives. But I think you are having another girl :)

I hope you have a great week with your dad!

Love,
jennifer

MattandErin said...

Those pictures are AMAZING! I am so glad that they lifted your spirits... So now all we need to know is it another Jeff-ina or a baby boy! You have so much more will power than me! Congrats on this milestone - I can't wait for your third trimester to get here. :)

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Erin said...

Wow! I actually yelled that when I saw those pictures. Mike thought something happened to me:) I usually see an ultrasound and it looks like a blob no matter how much is explained to me! Glad to hear you are feeling better. Have fun with Gary and I'll see you next weekend. -E

Amanda said...

what GREAT pictures! I am so happy for you! I am so glad to hear you are doing great! And woohoo about the new computer! That is ALWAYS exciting to get new gadgets and gizmos around the house! You will be a pro once the new baby arrives! Still praying for you daily! Those stinkin hormones. I was fine with D, but cried off and on most he pregnancy with Marleigh. Doctor said it was increased hormones with a female on board! :)

MBKimmy said...

Awesome update, awesome news ... I hope that all continues to go well ... I will continue the prayers!
PS the pictures are great!