Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Some exciting news to share...
Well, I never thought I would say this but here we go again!!!!! I have been bursting with excitement and itching to blog about this exciting time in our lives but I needed to wait till it felt completely right and it finally does! We are 10 weeks and 5 days pregnant and everything looks absolutely perfect so far! We have had 6 ultra sounds and the baby and everything with me looks great, one beautiful baby and one strong heartbeat! I still think it is so surreal that I am pregnant and that Jeff and I may actually end up with three living children here, it just seems so amazing and so beyond what I can comprehend! I knew about 6 months after Blake was born that I wasn't done, that I really wanted to have another baby. Maybe it was the added fact that we had 9 embryos left over and waiting for us but I just couldn't shake that strong maternal instinct in me that really wanted to do this again. Jeff on the other hand, he wasn't quite there when Blake was 6 months old:)! I tried to talk him into it, I tried to tell him how great it would be but then a good friend said to me, "Stop talking to Jeff about it, pray about it and pray for Jeff's heart to change" she said if it changed then it was from God and supposed to be for our family. SO, I did just that and on our anniversary this past February, at the end of our crazy adventure of a year, Jeff told me he was ready and he wanted to have another baby! I was so excited and so sure we were doing the right thing. The weeks leading up, going back to the doctors and the reality of all we had to face sometimes felt daunting to me but I couldn't look at that, I had to focus on the end result (looking at these two beautiful babies I have) and I knew there was NO way I was letting those embryos go without giving it my all to bring another baby into this world. We did, however decide together that we could only do one more round of In-vitro both financially and emotionally, so in talking with our doctor we decided to thaw out all 9 embryos and put the very best back, praying that God would make it really obvious and that there wouldn't be 5 or some crazy number that looked good. Thankfully, God proved His control once again, we arrived for our transfer on May 17th and two perfect embryos were the only ones ready to be put back. We put them back and prayed like crazy that the strongest would stay...9 days later, we got our first positive test (after three negative tests, but who is counting)! So here we are!!! I still can hardly believe we are pregnant again! We told the kids and they are so excited, Kate is just beside herself and has been so sweet. I never knew how much she understood about her sisters until the first night after we told her, I was putting her to bed and she asked if she could sing a song to the baby. Of course I told her yes so she gets down by my tummy and sings "please sweet baby don't come out too soon, please eat a lot of food and grow really big but please don't come out until you are ready to live here with me instead of with Jesus, I love you baby" - YES I cried my eyes out listening to her, amazing heart that little angel has! Blake, well, he just thinks the baby is in his tummy! Love their hearts and personalities right now!
As far as our plan, we will follow everything we did with Blake. We have met with Dr. K, twice now and he said why mess with success. My surgery to have my cerclage put in is July 25th, a week from Monday. When we get through that, I will feel a huge relief as with anything there are risks involved...clearly we all feel the risks outweigh the alternative. Again, I have the best peri in Atlanta and I feel 100% confident in his care for me and for us. From there, it is one week at a time and each week and each milestone will be a blessing. We are so excited and so much more peaceful as of today then we were at this point with Blake. I think we both feel more confident in my body being able to carry a singleton, we also know God is in control and all we can do is what we can do and from there it is out of our hands!
I hope to blog about this as I did with Blake, I read back during his pregnancy and what an amazing journal this is for him to read someday! We would appreciate all your prayers for this baby and that he/she makes it full term and able to come home with us and live with us, we know how incredibly blessed we are with our two angels here and the thought of adding another little miracle to our home is beyond amazing! God is so good!